Minggu, 30 Desember 2012

Judulnya Coretan!!!


 Sebelumnya, sebenernya ini catetan nggak penting. Jadi ngga usah dibaca. Kalo yang udah terlanjur ngebuka, skip aja mending.

Wahh, udah dibilangin ngga penting. Masih diterusin ngebaca juga. Yaudah dehh...
Jadi ceritanya nih, lagi sibuk jadi WO dadakan. Dari yang kecil ampe yang gedhe, dari yang simpel sampe yang ribet, udah ngrasain deh. Satu pendapat, “kasian bener yang jadi keluarga cowo nya, harus nyiapin segala bumbu masak sampe makanan siap saji. Yang cewe tinggal terima jadi.” Sebagai cewe si seneng juga. Hahaha

Nih, jadi akhirnya sayanya yang nyiapin semuanya. Dari sovenir sampe seserahan. Nihhh, parcel bikinan sayah. Segala mukena sampe yang dalem2 saya bikin mainan.
:D




Banyak lagi si, ada 10 lagi kalo ngga salah. Dan semuanya parcelnya suruh bikin sendiri, pelit apa gimana gitu ya si mamam. ya tapi seenggaknya jadi ada gunanya hidup sayah, biar cuman mbungkusin sama ngehiasin parcel. -___-

Dan ini, rainbow cake terlezat yang pernah saya makan. (itu bikinan saya dan itu rainbow cake kedua saya setelah yang pertama pas2n banget.)
 Bikin khusus buat lamarannya kakak Tercinta.





Capek lahir batin, sekaligus nyenengin. Jadi agak berpengalaman gitu ya kalo kalo pengen nikah.
Yaudah itu aja. Bye.

Saksi Kesuksesanku


Aku tidak yakin sudah berapa lama tepatnya hari ini, sejak kejadian malam itu. Entahlah, aku tiba-tiba menangis.

Kamu telah menancapkan paku di hati aku, yang sungguh aku tidak yakin kapan bekasnya akan hilang setelah kamu mencabutnya. Kamu harus tahu bahwa aku nggak akan pernah lupa hari itu. Dimana kamu membuatku menangis ditengah2 malam, duduk diteras rumah, dan bingung harus kemana. Tak sadarkah kamu bahwa saat itu juga kamu sedang memberikan pupuk pada benih kebencian yang telah kamu tanam sejak lama, dan sedari saat itu, benih itu tumbuh dengan membabi buta. Maaf, tapi mungkin benar-benar sulit bagiku untuk memaafkan kamu.

Tak sadarkah kamu, bahwa saat itu juga kamu telah memberikan sebuah dorongan yang begitu besar, dengan cara yang sungguh tidak aku sukai. Mungkin aku juga harus berterima kasih, karena berkat kamu, aku pasti akan menjadi orang tangguh. Hanya, tunggu dan lihatlah. Aku pastiin kamu jadi salah satu SAKSI dari kesuksesanku. Caramu menjatuhkanku, sungguh telah membuatku terbiasa untuk bangkit. 

Selasa, 25 Desember 2012

A Little Not for Mom

Hei blogilicious, it is at least 4 month since the last post, yeah actually I've been very busy. It is nothing, but something that I really want her, the one and only great Mom I have, to know.

_______________________________________________________________

Mom, how are you today? Are you feeling well? I am thinkin’ of you at this very moment. I dunno but I just... seem like I need you as that much. Something woke me up from my sleep, and without any clear reason it made me crying. And, all those things appeared suddenly, hurt me again.

Mom, in this very moment, I remember everything that we’ve ever faced. You and dad and everything related to ours. It’ve memorized well in my mind. How we used to laugh, how we used to spend a really good time. How we went shopping together. How we went to some places together. I used to think I won’t get a great family, but ours. However, it just definitely makes me crying, for whatever just being a memory. Could I have it once more, mom? Thought just for a glance.

Sorry, but, why should ours? Why should you who suffered as that much? I’m sick of watching you being how you now. Since the day, I haven’t seen that. I want that smile that you used to have. You are not that good for lying; why did you hide it from me? Could you trust me that I can be yours to share how suffer you are. I could be your foot if you want. I could be your diary if you need to share, and whatever you want me to be, as long as I could see that smile again.

And also, Mom, these loves have hurt me so much. If it mine, I can’t imagine how that love’s hurt you. It’s such nothing; I just can’t stand it alone. I am not hiding; I just want to calm down. I am sick of writing when he can’t read, speaking when he can’t listen. Is it should be like this? Is love should be hurt like this, Mom? I need something to make me understand. Could you give me that, Mom? Honestly, at this rate, I am down.

I dunno, what’s wrong. But now, I am down. Mom, I am thinking so many things that definitely remind me to ‘those’ we’ve ever had. I am tired, Mom. I am tired of acting like an adult. Would you please give me a hug as I used to be your child? A little while, Mom, I really need it.
Is it ok to be like this? Mom?
_________________________________________________________________


yeah, that's really nothing, but that's really something I have. Thanks for the time to read the note. *HUG*

Sabtu, 04 Agustus 2012

Catch Me

It's what I feel now. How could this be since a few recent years ago? I dunno. 


I wait for a message
I wait for Ur chat
I wait for U in ma dreams
I try to find U on Facebook
then, I really scared
I want to go somewhere I wont find Ur shadow



Catch Me by Demi Lovato


Before I fall, too fast
C                  Em
Kiss me quick, but make it last
Am             G              Am
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
F
When you say goodbye

C               G
Keep it sweet, keep it slow
C                      Em
Let the future pass, but don't let go
Am                  G
But tonight I could fall to sleep
Am            F(let ring A little)
To this beautiful moonlight


C         G
But you're so hypnotizing
Am            F                  C
You've got me laughing while I sing
G          Am       F
You've got me smiling in my sleep
C           G
And I can see this unraveling
Am      F                C
And your love is where I'm falling
G            Am      F
So please don't catch me


C                  G
See this heart won't settle down
C                         Em
Like a child running scared from a clown
Am           G
I'm terrified of what you'll do
F                                G
My stomach screams just when I look at you


C             G
Now fly away so I can breath
C                              Em
Even though your far from suffocating me
Am            G
But I cant get my hopes to high
Am                    F (let ring a little again)
Cuz every hello ends with goodbye


C         G
But you're so hypnotizing
Am            F                  C
You've got me laughing while I sing
G          Am       F
You've got me smiling in my sleep
C           G
And I can see this unraveling
Am      F                C
And your love is where I'm falling
G            Am      F
So please don't catch me


C           G
Now you see why I'm scared
C                          Em
I can't open up my heart without a care
Am              G
So here I go, it's what I feel
Am                                F (ring again)
And for the first time in my life I know it's real


C         G
But you're so hypnotizing
Am            F                  C
You've got me laughing while I sing
G          Am       F
You've got me smiling in my sleep
C           G
And I can see this unraveling
Am      F                C
And your love is where I'm falling
G            Am      F
So please don't catch me


C                   G
If this is love, please don't break me
Am         F(ring out)
I'm giving up so just catch me




Love ya


D.S.A

Kamis, 02 Agustus 2012

Buka Puasa in English

What I want to share is about ma new vocab I got this morning. It quiet important because I often hear people said 'open fast' when they want to say 'buka puasa'. Yachh, I think that was a wrong diction. :p
Here it is!


'break the fast', 'break a fast' , 'breakfast' = buka puasa
break mean 'memecah'/'menghentikan' 

fast mean 'puasa'
breakfast means menghentikan/mengakhiri puasa (berbuka puasa)
U may also said 'break the fast', 'break a fast', 'to break a fast'

It have similarity meaning with 'breakfast' that means 'sarapan'
breakfast (puasa) means mengakhiri berpuasa (tidur berarti tidak makan sepanjang malam atau bisa juga diartikan berpuasa)


That's all. Ur comment is so important to me. 
Thanks fo coming. BigHug.



D.S.A

Jumat, 27 Juli 2012

Dealova


Dealova

Kuat walau hati rapuh
Senyum walau terluka
Tertawa meski menangis
Bertahan dalam lelah
Berharap dalam gelisah
Menunggu meski kutahu, tak pasti
Menatap meski takut
Diam walau ingin bicara

Sederhana,
Aku hanya ingin, mencintaimu seperti bulan
Teduh, tenang, damai, memberi secukupnya
Tetap ada walau tak terlihat,
Mencintaimu dalam jarak, menemanimu walau tak disisimu
Menjagamu saat kau tertidur
Saat pagi ku tak terlihat, saat itu aku sedang beristirahat
Karena terlalu lelah menjaga tidurmu semalaman...

Dealova, ma dearest love
ma 'Fie'



Tapi, apa kalian pernah tau apa arti sebenarnya dari dealova? 
Dealova diambil dari bahasa italia yaitu: 
de: sebuah
lova: cinta
jadi dealova berarti sebuah cinta.
Entah bagaimana, lagu dealova selalu membuat sayah merinding ketika mendengarnya. 



BigHug

D.S.A

Kamis, 26 Juli 2012

Cerita Malem2


Yachh, so tired thz day.
I dunno mau nulis apa. Mungkin mau sedikit cerita aja kali ya. Cuma di sini, di blog ini aku bisa nuangin semuanya. Ngga peduli apa, aku cuma ingin sedikit meringankan beban. Dari kelelahan, yang aku alami. B’cz I know tht no one can read anothers mind, cannt feel anothers feeling. Semakin aku berharap pengertian, semakin sakit karena aku cerita tapi ngga ada yang bisa ngerti.

What a pity.

Aku ngga tau kapan aku bisa berubah, bisa sedikit memikirkan perasaan sendiri tanpa mempertimbangkan ini itu yang dirasain orang lain. Mungkin anda tidak tau bagaimana saya memikirkan perasaan anda tanpa mempedulikan perasaan saya. Tapi kamu tetap enggan untuk menatap, pura2 tidak terjadi apa-apa, diam dan bahkan kamu nggak tau aku disini menangis. WTH!

Aku malas untuk meratapi hidup, aku hanya berusaha senyum walaupun kau tau? Ini sangat berat. Nggak peduli apa, aku nulis ini sambil nangis. Cuman, plis jangan buat ini lebih susah. Hanya, jangan bikin aku sedih. Udah itu aja.

Aku juga ingin punya cerita seperti mereka. Bahagia dengan pasangannya. Bahagia dengan keluarganya. Tak peduli berapa kali aku berpikir, tak peduli berapa kali aku memejamkan mata, semua ini tetap sama dan aku masih nggak bisa berbuat apa2. Aku tau, aku sangat sadar bahwa bukan aku yang paling menderita di dunia ini. Tapi, ijinkanlah aku sejenak menangis, sebentar saja mengeluh, tak peduli siapa yang mengerti, aku hanya ingin menangis.

Yachh, sayang, aku baru menyadari bahwa hati kamu seperti tisu yang mudah sobek. Aku sangat membutuhkan ekstra tenaga untuk menjaganya. Hanya, mengertilah karena aku begitu berusaha keras menjagamu. Tanpa kau tau, semua yang menyangkut kamu, perasaanku adalah yang nomor sekian dibanding perasaanmu. Karena begitu nggak mudah bertahan sama kamu, mengertilah, jangan buat semuanya semakin sulit. Aku hanya nggak punya siapapun untuk ‘berbagi’. Jadi mengertilah, karena aku bukan seperti mereka yang sangat kuat. Jadi mengertilah karena aku wanita yang mudah terluka hatinya.

Rabu, 18 Juli 2012

Salam??


Walau hanya seperti angin dan bukan udara, terima kasih telah datang membawa kesejukan. Terima kasih untuk tawa, dan untuk semuanya. Aku bahagia, walau pasti kau akan kembali ke kehidupanmu, dimana seharusnya kamu.  Setidaknya aku pernah mengenalmu.

Ijinkan aku untuk tidak melupakannya, ijinkan aku untuk tersenyum (lagi) ketika aku mengingatnya. Bahwa kau pernah ada. Bahwa kau, untuk setidaknya pernah membuatku melupakannya. Bahwa kau pernah memberi sentuhan warna lain di pelangiku.

Kau angin, yang datang saat ku memejamkan mata. Aku akan merindukanmu suatu saat nanti. Walau entah dimana, kita pasti akan bertemu lagi. Di tempat dan keadaan yang berbeda. God Willing.

Salam,

Selasa, 17 Juli 2012

Why?


Why is the sun rising?
Why does the sky look so blue?
Why is the rain falling?
Why are they beautiful?
Why are they poor?
Why should I be a woman?
Why should the butterfly fly?
Why there’s a love?
Why there’s you, when Im afraid to smile?

They just some of many things that I dont know “Why”

Senin, 16 Juli 2012

What's going on?


What should I do?
The time’s coming
Dont require any permition
That I feel, that I dont know
Just take all this pain then i feel alive’
It’s not the first time, what I know it since a few days before
Yach, I still arrange my shadow in the mirror
And says, how could this be?
It’s hurt when this mouth smiling
I cried when the flower’s blowin’...

Temu Teater Mahasiswa Nusantara X


Nulis apa ya? Bingung. Tapi pengen banget nulis. Secara udah 2 bulan ofline :p. Ni blog nyampe mbangke dan bau. Hahh

Aku cewek dan aku galau. Kenapa?? Kenappaa?? :/

Seminggu kemarin aku berangkat dari kota purworejo dengan hati senang. Ceritanya nih mau ada acara temu teater mahasiswa nusantara 7 hari. Ngebayangin udah seneng duluan ya kayak gini nih, giliran udah sampe sana kaget liat nginepnya dikelas2 di lantai. (Mamaaa kerokin, sayah masuk anginnn!!!) tidur udah kayak pengungsi, berjajar, berbaris telentang, iler2an, tendang2an. Panassssssssss banget disana, sampe2 waktu bangun ni kaki udah beku mati rasa.

Hari ke 1: Tuh kan mba, aku bilang juga apa. Aturan tadi bawa selimut. (ngomong sama emba kimbul)
Hari ke 2: Mbaa, aku ngantuk banget, tidurnya semalem nggak jelas. Masuk angin juga nihh. Nggak betah mba, pengen pulang.
Hari ke 3: Embaaaa, ni kenapa 3 hari makan sama tempe, makan sama orek, kacang panjang, lama2 muka ku kayak tempe nii ahhh.
Hari ke 4: asikk banget anak2nya, ngobrol sama anak Papua, Banjarmasin, Samarinda, Malang, Jakarta, banyak lagi dehh. Betah betah dehh mbaa, tapi gimana kalo kita beli kasur dulu biar ngga masuk angin terus?
Hari ke 5: seneng banget, dapet kakak2 adik dan sodara baru. Sharing bareng, seneng2 bareng, makan tempe juga bareng. Jangan pisah dehhh :D
Hari ke 6: sedihh, jangan pada pulang dulu siii, kan acara belum kelar. L
Hari ke 7: seneng sii jalan2, tapi sedihhhhh banget harus pamit. Sampe ketemu taun depan Insya Alloh, abang2 kakak2 dan sodara2ku.
Hari ke 7 sore kita pulang, bawa oleh2 ilmu, cerita, dan pengalaman banyak banget. Sedihhnyoooo harus pisah sama mereka yg baik2 dan hebat.

Performance

Workshop Penyutradaraan

Performance


Seminar

Workshop Kenaskahan

Workshop Kenaskahan


Oleh2nya nii:
-Nggak selamanya kutu buku itu cupu, nggak selamanya orang pinter itu kaku
-Bahkan sehelai daun yang jatuh pun itu adalah rencananya
-Teater Kok Seriussss???
-Dapet julukan baru dari abang jakarta Lil’ Bee (Libi) :p dan Ketu (kecil tua :@)
-Dapet sofenir nd kenang2n banyak dari temen2. (sogem, andi, ka deby, si mawar :p, matur nuwunn, pak LO nya juga dehh matur nuwunnn hha)
-kenangan yang indahhhh J

Hahhh, geje semua. My New Friend, you are awesome. Say thanks for 13, for the great moment.


Bangsal 13

Berteater di lapangan
Perpisahan di Baturaden

bangsal 13

Mba Kimbul

Pulang pulang ayo pulang, dan nyampe rumah kaget liyat kamar jadi tambah PINK. Tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!! Aku mau pindah kamar!

Hashtag: Temu Teater Mahasiswa Nusantara X


PelukJauh

D.S.A

Selasa, 22 Mei 2012

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel that I can (be), but I cant
Sometimes I want to do, but you know, I cant
Sometimes I feel that Im lucky but Im not
Sometimes I think life is easy but itsn
Sometimes I want to act like you, but I cant
Sometimes I think I can be like you, but I cant
Sometimes I think Im something, but Im not
Sometimes I feel 'ok to be like this, but hurt inside
Sometimes... sometimes...
no matter its hard to understand, this 'sometimes' come
more than 'anytimes'

Minggu, 20 Mei 2012

Goes to Kawah Putih

Assalamualaikum, how come girls? I think all off you have a really good day in thiz Sunday :)

Heiya girls, I remember when I went to Bandung. I went to Kawah Putih. Maybe some of you have never heard about this place. There, I take some pict, I wanna share with you for your traveling reference. Check tiz out!



(Shoping Area)


(Love Stone)


(You look so weird, babe. :p )


That's all, ta' and see ya :D


BigHug

D.S.A

Sabtu, 19 Mei 2012

Bizarre Love Triangle Lyric

This is it, Bizarre Love Triangle lyrics. It's really simple but good song. You may also download this song here.

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Every time I see you falling
I'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

Jumat, 18 Mei 2012

Di Ujung Jalan Sana (Opening)


B
erjalan, tanpa arah. Lurus meski terkadang nengok. Terus meski aku nggak tau akan kemana. Tak berhenti meski aku nggak tau sampai kapan. Namun, aku tetap menikmati, aku tetap berjalan. Mungkin di ujung jalan sana aku akan menemukannya.
Dulu, aku selalu berpikir semuanya mudah. Sampai-sampai aku nggak tahu bagaimana caranya untuk hidup susah. Nggak tau cara untuk menangis. Nggak tau cara untuk berjuang. Sampai suatu saat aku terjatuh, aku nggak tau cara untuk bangkit. Bagaimana hidup nggak selalu mulus, nggak selalu indah kaya film-film di telivisi, pada akhirnya Tuhan mengajariku. Ya, memang kadang kamu harus merasakan nikmatnya memiliki dan pedihnya kehilangan.

***

Saat aku berjalan tanpa arah, aku memang nggak pernah tau dimana jalan ini akan berujung. Aku membuang beribu waktu untuk kesenangan, yang aku dapat tanpa usaha. Ya, aku nggak pernah ngrasa sakit sedikitpun. Karena semua yang aku inginkan bisa aku miliki. Tapi tidak untuk satu tahun berikutnya. 

Mungkin hanya sampai besok, lusa, atau tahun depan, kalau Tuhan berbaik hati, aku bisa merasakan indahnya memiliki. Menyayangi yang utuh. Tertawa yang bahagia. Kalau Dia mengijinkan, aku ingin merasakannya dua tahun lagi. Tapi mungkin nggak bisa. Pagi ini adalah pagi di hari ke 15 bulan Januari. Dokter bilang, mungkin pagi ke 1 di bulan Februari, aku sudah nggak bisa merasakan sejuk embunnya. Di sana, jalan itu berujung. Memiliki hanya akan menjadi kenangan. Dalam mimpi yang abadi aku akan mengingatnya, atau mungkin juga melupakannya. Nanti, di tempat yang berbeda, sangat berbeda, aku akan melihat dia dan mereka menangis. Saat itu, aku akan memiliki sebuah yang menyedihkan, yang kau sebut ‘kehilangan’.

 

Kamis, 10 Mei 2012

Concentration


Concentration can be defined as focusing in one things. Seems it is simple, but in fact, it is difficult to get our concentration.  We all have the ability to concentrate some of the time. But at other times our thoughts are scattered, and our minds race from one thing to another. To deal with such times, we need to learn and practice concentration skills and strategies. To concentrate, we have to learn a skill, and as with any skill this means practice repeated day after day until we achieve enough improvement to feel that we can concentrate when we need to.

1.      Commitment
We need to make a personal commitment to put in the effort needed to do the task in the way which we realistically plan to do it. If we just play at it in a half-heated manner then it is much more difficult to take the task and ourselves seriously.

2.      Enthusiasm
If we are interested in the task and enjoy doing it, then we find it easy to motivate ourselves to start. Once started, our feelings of involvement in the activity keep us going - we want to do it.

3.      Skill
Knowing how to do something gives confidence that our efforts will be successful, so we don't have to deal with anxiety about will this work or not. Anxiety tends to impair concentration.

4.      Our emotional & physical state
When we are in good physical condition - i.e. feeling rested, relaxed and comfortable - and our emotions are calm and benevolent, then we tend to be positive about things. This in turn raises self-esteem, which makes us more able to concentrate, if only because we don't have to worry about how awful we are or life is.

5.      Our psychological state
For example, if we are in an obsessional or distracted state our thoughts are per-occupied, leaving little mental space to think about anything else.

6.      Environment
It is much more difficult to concentrate if our surroundings keep intruding on our awareness, perhaps because it is noisy, too hot or too cold, the furniture is uncomfortable or the people around us are stressing out.

How to increase our ability to concentrate?
People sometimes refer to a concentration span : this is the time we can concentrate on a specific task before our thoughts wander. In learning concentration skills, we aim to extend our concentration span - bearing in mind that we will have a different span for different tasks. It cannot be expanded to infinity! Most people find their level for most tasks round about an hour, but for some people and some tasks it will just be a few minutes, while for others it might be two or three hours.
The main barriers to concentrating are boredom, anxiety and day-dreaming. Thus in improving our concentration skills we need to counteract these barriers. The following three skills are basic to concentration: if you want to improve your concentration, start by practicing them. They will be followed by further strategies which will allow you to build onto the basic skills.

1. STOP!!!
This sounds very simple, but it works. When you notice your thoughts wandering, say to yourself STOP and then gently bring your attention back to where you want it to be. Each time it wanders bring it back. To begin with, this could be several times a minute. But each time, say STOP and then re-focus. Don't waste energy trying to keep thoughts out of your mind (forbidden thoughts attract like a magnet!), just put the effort into STOP and re-focus.
To begin with you will do this hundreds of times a week. But you will find that the period of time between your straying thoughts gets a little longer each day, so be patient and keep at it.

2. Attending
This is about maintaining concentration and not giving in to distractions. It could be described as a sort of tunnel-vision, or as being focused: you keep your concentration on what is in front of you. If you are distracted, use the STOP technique to regain concentration. You can practice attending in many situations:
  • eg. in a lecture, if people move or cough, ignore them, don't look at them, actively exclude them from the link or tunnel formed between you and the lecturer.
  • eg. in a social situation, keep your attention solely on one person - what they say, how they look etc. - and ignore what is going on round about.
3. Worry time
Set aside one or more specific periods in the day when you are allowed to worry. It can help to set them just before something that you know you will do, to ensure that you stop worrying on time - e.g. before a favorite TV program, or a meal-time. Whenever an anxiety or distracting thought enters your mind during the day, banish it until your next worry time, and re-focus on to what you are supposed to be doing. Some people find it helpful to write down the banished thought: it is easier to banish a thought if you are sure you won't have forgotten it when you get to your worry time. It is important that you keep your worry time(s), and make yourself worry for the full time. If you find that you can't fill the time available, then make a conscious decision to reduce it.
You may notice, particularly if you keep a list, that certain things keep reappearing: this is a fairly clear indication that you need to do something about them.

4. Active Learning
Everyone has their own distinct learning style. Some learn by reading and then asking themselves questions, others learn by making condensed notes and memorizing them, others learn by the associations they make to the material, and yet others retain a pictorial image of the material. Once you know your learning style, organize the material to suit it: if you don't, learning will be more of a struggle than it need be and your concentration will suffer. Having your own learning style involves having your own internal 'language': briefly, this means the words you use to translate and understand the material so that it has meaning for you. If you don't know how you learn best, try to analyze your experience either with someone who knows how you work, or with someone with expertise in this area.

Galau-galau Gue

Buka Ms. Word nggak tau mau ngapain :D

Corat coret aja kali ya? Hemmmm, yes yes yes, dapet ide! #gue stress. Ini yang lagi booming yaitu GALAU. Kenapa??? Kenapaaaa??? Kenapa harus gue??? Nangis-nangis = GALAU. Jalan-jalan, pasang headset, dengerin lagu galau, ngelamun. Ada tukang mie ayam, nggak tau kenapa, nggak laper, berenti aja, pesen 2 mangkok plus 1 es jeruk, makan sambil ngelamun, sadar2 kepedesan, masukin saos kebanyakan. KENAPA?? Kenapaa harus gue?? Galau lagi. Udah selese makan, bayar, cabut. Ada tukang somay, beli lagi. Makan sambil jalan. Haus dehh, nyari minum, jalan lagi. Nyeberang jalan, nggak liat kanan kiri, tiba2 ada supir angkot yang ngomel, “Hehh mba, kalo jalan pake MATA!!!” Nengok bentar, jalan lagi. Duduk2 di kursi taman, nangis, selese nangis cabut lagi, jalan lagi. Sadar2, tengok kanan-kiri, GUE ada dimanaaa??? Hahaha

Lagi lagi lagi, iya iya, sabarrrrrrrr. 

Fakta lagi tentang orang galau, dari A sampe Z. Yang ini GUE nggak termasuk. Dateng ke kelas dengan muka berantakan (pake lipstik dulu baru pake bedak) dan baju nggak mecing, cari kursi paling pojok, buka buku, tutup ke muka, tidurrrrrr (nggak tidur semaleman gara2 nangis). Ada juga yang uring2n nggak jelas, ngomel2. Ada lagi, dateng2, mojok di kelas, jongkok, nangis. 

Nggak cuman disitu, kemaren saya dan adik saya jalan2 ke gamezone. Ada mainan yang paling saya suka, KARAOKE. Dengan hati galau, sayanya masuk. Di tangan ada 18 koin. Duduk, nyari2 lagu, nyanyi2, tereak2, jingkrak2. Lama2 nggak tau kenapa ni koin abis. Beli lagi. Nyanyi2 lagi, beberapa puluh menit kemudian ada orang yang ngetok2 pintunya. Mukanya agak gimana gitu. Saya liat keluar, bussyeeeetdah, ternyata eh ternyata udah banyak banget yang ngantri daritadi. 5 menit lagi saya di situ mungkin bakal udah dirobohin tuh mainan. Hahaha

Aduhhh, kalo udah GALAU emang ruwet. Nggak ada toleransi buat orang lain. Dia pengen ya dia lakuin. seringnya malah jadi kaya orang bego :o

Makasihh deh yang udah baca catetan nggak jelas ini, peluk sayang jauhhhhh :D

Sabtu, 05 Mei 2012

Waktu aku tau apa itu sakit :)

Dear diary,

Malem ini malem minggu, seperti biasa saya selalu galau. Nggak tau kenapa sekarang, waktu sayah nulis ini, benar2 saya sedang menangis (lagi).

Udah beberapa hari saya sakit, badan panas, pusing, sakit kepala, herpes, komplikasi flu batuk, ya mudah2n cuma itu. Sayah hari ini nangis bukan karena itu, beneran, tapi karena 2 hal. Pertama karena denger dia marah2 padahal akunya lagi tepar lemah di tempat tidur. Boy, akunya pengen diajakin ngobrol, diajakin cerita ini itu, bukan dimarah2n. Ya, walaupun sayah tau dia marah2 karena kawatir sama sayah. Akhirnya akunya nangis, nd dia tetep marah. Tapi pas dia tau akunya nangis, dia langsung nggak marah lagi. Sayah cuma sedih sama perasaannya yang sebegitunya, bukan apa2, kalo nanti akunya pergi, takut bakal terjadi sesuatu yang buruk sama dia. 

Yang kedua saya nangis dan bener2 nangis waktu denger dia juga sakit, dadanya sesak, badanya gatal semua, alergi apa? Kenapa dadanya sesak? Biarin saya aja, biar sekalian, nggak usah dia sakit2 juga, ya Alloh. “apa kamu juga ngrasain gitu waktu kemarin2 denger akunya sakit? Kamu juga sedih kaya aku? Makanya kamu marah gara2 aku nggak makan, aku nggak mau ke dokter, aku nggak mau minum obat? “

Cuma satu, makasih. Makasih sayang. Let me love you more, but please not to love me more. :’)



_Doaku malam ini_
Tuhan, jika kau ijinkanku hidup bersamanya kelak
Tuntunlah kami agar sampai ke saat yang tepat
Muliakan hidup kami
Beri kami makan yang cukup,
Cinta yang cukup,
Bahagia yang cukup.
Juga, jika kau tak mengijinkan ku bersamanya kelak,
Tetaplah tuntun kami
Muliakan hidup kami
Beri kami makan yang cukup,
Cinta yang cukup,
Bahagia yang cukup.
Walau di tempat yang berbeda,
Dia, sebagai orang yang pernah memiliki
Bukan separuh, tapi seluruh hidupku...


 with love,


D.S.A